Positives, (ft. @Gaycacti)

In my life, i count positives, because they are not always bountiful. my life is an effervescent pot, nearing the boiling point. not physically, no, but mentally. i feel as though i am trapped, and i can to naught. look upon me, what sensation do you feel? pity? worry? dread, or am i a living mirror? i apologize if it is the latter. i hope not one reader here reciprocates what i am feeling. However, i shall get into the positives, what you are here for, i assume. firstly, i have completed art i am prideful of, and it took me awhile, too. i was thrilled that i made it. simply stunning what spontaneous motivation, and inspiration can do. regardless of that, i have also been sleeping fairly well as late, which is wonderful, and because of that, i have even captured some very beautiful sunrise photos. I awoke with a cool zephyr on my face today, after slowly being roused from sleep by my own thrill to do so early. i can finally get lost in a song, and in the zone, now, and tune out some of what is around me. I am getting closer to a friend that grew distant, the same one who taught me how to respect myself. i have made another good few friends, one who has a dirty mind, and one that draws 'cuddles' as something a bit more than a legitimate embrace. i am drinking a Dr. Pepper, at the moment. My hair is becoming healthier. my mother got be good shampoo, and it has really helped my hair strengthen, and become softer. i am hoping to grow my hair to be quite long. i have been becoming more comfortable with my sexuality, grasping that it is not my choice, and that is perfectly natural. i have been getting over some of my conflicting feelings over my mother, and realize she is a toxic individual i cannot avoid in my life. it is finally warm outside, about seventy-one degrees Fahrenheit outdoors (about twenty-two for my metric readers). i have smelled sweet flowers, and gone on some walks. I have been roleplaying, and it has been a fun way to express myself. Alongside writing, or attempting to do so, a novel. i am advancing in some of my out-of-school studies. i will be taking my permit test (for driving) tomorrow, i believe. i have helped one of my friends improve their life, at least emotionally. i have gotten my own cellphone, that is very much so my own. i can see the moon outside right now, in the day-lit sky. it is a waning crescent, the day after it was a half-moon. i have also helped a friend through personally things. thank you for reading.