The things i do not do good enough
*deemed by mother dearest* if i didn't get an A, i probably didn't try hard enough. i don't fold things fast enough, or neatly enough, or correctly i do not clean fast enough, or thoroughly enough, or like how she would. i do not clean often enough. i do not socialize enough. i do not read enough. i spend too much time online, i should do the latter two more often. i do not go outside enough. i do not eat enough sometimes. i am not fit enough. i do not dress correctly, up to her standards. i do not wash my face enough. i do not tend to my hair correctly, because if i did, i wouldn't have so many split ends. i do not talk to her enough. i don't do things with her enough. i don't study enough. i don't have enough patients. i chose the wrong type of glasses. i don't look good enough, she has to fuss over me for that. i bite my nails, which she deems disgusting. i have """social anxiety""" and just need to cope with it, and not be such a baby. i need to cook better. i need to be stronger, physically. i don't open up to her enough. ... i don't have enough "real" friends. i am not skinny like she was at my age, my thighs touch and i have some chub, despite her telling me i cannot lose any more weight. not unless i exercise. i do not draw realistically enough. i do not try hard enough when i attempt something new. i do not put away my laundry enough. i do not do chores enough. i am not 'girly' enough? i need to tell her who my crush is because she wants to know "him". i don't have good enough friends, because they are male. i do not watch the correct things on T.V.. i do not savor her blessings and gifts to me enough. i am not grateful enough. i am not confident enough. i am not a Type A personality like she wants. i am not confrontational enough. i cannot stand up for other or myself well enough. i do not animate well enough. it needs colour. i am not smart enough, because she knows everything i need to know. i am not old enough i truly understand consequences. i do not write neatly enough. i do not write correctly, i just need to fix it. i do not enjoy eating the healthiest of things she gives me (i enjoy some, but not all). i do not love my family's dogs enough, because i don't like petting them very often. i need actual hobbies.
- Published January 25, 2020, 08:42
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