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i am in an emotional state i can't really describe, though i am relaxed. i just feel a bit sad for having no reply in a roleplay for three hours. I have also been procrastinating on homework, which i do plan on working on soon, along with studying, all before bed, to help soothe my nerves, or bore me enough to where i can sleep soundly. Note, i am perfectly okay with waiting a few hours for a response, as long as i am made aware of someone having to leave to do something, it just stings when i am not told such information. i do not pry, do not worry, i just would like to be made aware, it doesn't have to be anything personal, either, just a simple "i gotta go," or something. but being left in the dark kind of...sucks. it makes me sad, but, there is nothing more i can do about it. i just have to deal with it, and wait. I have the time to be patient, i have all night after all though i may have to get my studying supplies and homework to make sure i do study and finish the aforementioned work. i just do not like such patterns from people, because it has happened with almost everyone i have roleplayed with. and it kind of hurts. it brings back bad feelings, but i suppose it is okay. they do what they have to do, or want. maybe it is good for me, to learn that i have to wait for things, because people won't always wanna play or talk to me. they have their own lives and issues and other things they like to do with other people, after all. i just need to be a bigger kid about it, and not wanna cry about something i shouldn't be concerned about. it's just lonely, is all, when all my friends are gone offline or doing other things. i never wanna interrupt for my own self's sake. and most of the conversations end up being really awkward with my other acquaintances, so. . .i do not know what to think about that,i am trying really hard. i do not know what i should do, anymore. i just have to wait, i suppose, and try to make more friends. just need to wait a little more.
- Published January 17, 2020, 20:45
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