What we went over in the shower:
• had a weird daydream about a nun giving an important hopeful speech on the government and the state of the world just to announce after that shes abandoning the church and stopping being a nun but that she still believes in god and wont be fulfilled in life therefore she will still go to heaven as shes abandoning being a nun for greater purpose. Later she offered to install Linux on the computers of anyone who would want to in the room going on a tangent abt how long it'd take - explained my gender and my gender expression as if somebody asked to myself even tho nobody asked (usually doesnt happen) - we're all literally just sacks of meat. I looked into the mirror and couldnt help imagining my face without the skin as i rubbed weird product over it. Under the weird skin sack that covers all of me is a weird construction of complicated meaty tissue endowsed with countless veins and big tunnels pumping with warm blood. My bones are slipping against wet structures wrapping around my slippery delicate organs inside. My bones are wet. I would be unrecognizable with my skin off. I could be killed so easily. I wonder what it would feel like to be massacred and feel organs leave my body. I wish sometimes to be able to pull myself apart because the construction of my ribcage feels so constricting like my body is suffocating me. What am i besides a meaty organ with electrical systems processing the enviroment around me living in a disgusting meat prison?
- Published June 21, 2022, 15:15
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