I should really just stop trying. ive pulled back to focus more on myself but even still I hate seeing them suffer.. am I not good enough? just as me? I need to learn im not running out of time. i have time. I should shut my mouth and I will I keep fucking it all up why do I keep being the bad guy? what did I do? My familys falling apart Im not even interesting! All I have is my made up stupid story that proably will never be published. thats all that makes me interesting. I should just stop... I make a mistake...I apologize and face that ive made a mistake and I try and make it better but its too late and im already the bad guy.. again.. and again... and again.. what would happen if I just stopped talking..?