i am sorry. (vent)
i have been stressing over not seeing a silly notification, but i know i should just let this all go. i do not matter so much, do i? i,, just need to let it all go. let it go, and accept this,, people are busy. i just,, do not know why, what or something,, should i do? what should i do? i am so tired. people are busy, and here i am. i am in my corner, but that is okay. i think i deserve it, maybe? at least on this site. i barged in, and overstepped my boundaries. i had no right to say what i did, and,, i deserve this. i deserve to feel like this, don't i? for getting too attached. time to live, and let be. let things turn out how they will,, i am far too bland for this anyways. how do people even come to like me,, anyways? i am sorry, all, for being so bland, but it is who i am. goodbye, to anyone who read this. i am,, just so tired of being hopeful, and having it stepped on, as you step on a Lego at three in the morning. augh, now i am shaking. i am a wee little filly, a fussing chick. i should grow up. not everyone will want to talk to me, or be my friend, so why should i really be bothered by this? people are busy, too. education, jobs, emotions. nothing is making me happy, today, and i suppose i was too morbid. i shouldn't've been, and i am sorry. i am so sorry. i am sorry how i like things,, are boring. crass. i am sorry. i just cannot do it. i am too much of a weakling to tough through this. i am sorry. i just,, always feel like this. i always feel as though i have to work too hard, work so hard for a fighting chance, and i always lose. i always fail in trying, and i hurt my sensitive feelings. i am sorry. i am so needy, aren't i? so very pathetic, look at me. crying through text in a vent no one will read, anyways. i am so sad, in the pitiful way. i am sorry. so sorry. i am so alone here, and i can barely stand to come on this website, and i only did so, for the most time, to talk to people. but most days, i see posts, no DMs, no worries. but now it has got me. i come here to draw, and that is basically it. no time, so stressed, so tired. so sad. hollow, needy, so pathetic. i am sorry.
- Published August 14, 2020, 15:45
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