Alarms.
most days, my mother has to wake up very early to go to work, which is okay. but she snoozes her alarm for,, almost fourty minutes each day. it is ruining my sleep schedule. i am so frustrated with it, and on top of my life..? i hate it. i don't want to die, but i just wanna be saved from this. i wanna hide from this, to just be brought off somewhere and life a fantasy of a life. not this. not constantly being tired at school on days my mother works. dreading falling asleep since i know i will be woken up by her alarming for at least at hour, since sometimes it can take hours for me to fall asleep. no matter how hard i try, or what i do. it doesn't seem to matter. i just sleep poorly most days. Reguardless if i: read strain myself during gym class take a hot shower put on background noise, of varying types try to sleep in silence light pyjamas, thick pyjamas one blanket, just a sheet, three or four blankets heating mat, no heating mat adjusting my pillows, tossing and turning brushing my teeth, not brushing my teeth washing my face, not washing my face... watching videos, not watching videos taking melatonin, not taking it... it just doesn't seem to matter. at all.
- Published March 02, 2020, 15:28
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