i just give up on trying to feel okay at this point everything sucks so much at the moment like-i dont see a point in it anymore i wanna believe what everyone says but its really hard to when they dont even act like its true every fuckin time i say something about being sad or feeling excluded (which is every day), all my friends kinda just- dont take it very seriously its like they dont believe anything i say like obviously im telling the truth about being sad when im roasting hot but refuse to roll up my sleeves or take my sweatshirt off its hurts a lot its kinda bullshit like,,what'd i do to deserve this. they never seem to care, and when they really tell me they do, its always online. its easy to hide what your really thinking when youre behind a screen none of it feels real anymore i always kinda doubted that people cared, but i never really thought id get to the point where i started to believe it