feeling.... (vent)
lonely. reading is fun and all, but it doesn't replace the feelings i feel when typing away or talking to people...golly... i wish i could talk to my friends more, but they all seem so busy and i have nothing to talk about, and it really sucks. i have felt so,, lonely for awhile now, maybe a week or so. i just want to know how to fix it, please tell me a way to fix it please. reading isn't helping how i thought it would. make the lonely sadness go away please make it go away. i want happy fun times again with friends, but everyone feels so distant. so cold. so untouchable (even in a metaphorical sense). please, the book isn't distracting me from the lonely. make the lonely stop, make it go away, make it go back to how it used to be. make it go back to the time i didn't realize i was lonely. i miss it, because at that time i didn't feel it so much. now it is a boring needle in my psyche. a plague in my thoughts. i feel trapped and i am scared. venting kind of helps, but doesn't fix it. i really wanna fix it, please let me fix it, tell me how to fix it please. tell me how to distract myself again. tell me how to be dumb again, and to not be hurt by small things again. please. please please please. please. please please please please. pretty please with a caramel cinnamon apple on top. please please make it go away please please. pretty please please. please lease please please pwele plwaew plaeap please. please. please let school distract me again. please let reading distract me again. please let YouTube videos distract me again. please let television distract me again. please let drawing distract me again, please please let music distract me again. please please please i beg of you please. please. i know i am pathetic, but please please. i am so very tired of being lonely. i can't cry. just make it stop. i just want to be held in some fabled lovers arms and be told everything will be okay, but it's just a figment of imagination that is failing me. please please make it stop! stop stop!! stop! stop please!!
- Published February 05, 2020, 20:07
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