"It hurts so much."
"Back then it used to be so easy to do bad shit. I would yell at them, insult them, hurt them in ways you couldn't imagine... but it didn't feel like I was doing bad shit. It just felt like nothing, like regular things that happen daily. But now i'm stuck here in the present, where i'm trying to change and be better, and I know it's good but... all the bad shit that I did is just weighing on me. The guilt is killing me and I don't know what to do. It wouldn't matter if I tried apologizing to them or act different around them, they wouldn't care. They're hellbent on killing me. It would make sense not to be guilty if I can't change it right? ... I killed a kid man. A kid. Barely a couple years and just gone from this world, by a monster like me. I can't change that, I can't get rid of the guilt from that. How am I supposed to be better if i'm always being weighed down by it all?"
- Published December 25, 2019, 18:28
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