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*turning up the volume because I can't hear the music over my fatass chewing because (!! ohmigod!!!) I'm actually eating for the first time in three days and my parents are giving me shit for it so ahaha time ti fuckign die* also my spanish teacher is making me do an entire project in one day and I'm so seriously jetlagged i just want death !! :)) but its fine !! and when I went to the funeral I just came back from it was open-casket !! :DD I have trauma regarding dead bodies so that was cool and all, love that!! <3 10/10. But I have so many missing assignments from having to fly to go to the funeral and my teachers are being assholes ab it like !! shutup!! :DDD shUTUP!! I'm grieving rn !! :D I'm already stressed enough goddamn. My transition in going: nowhere. I feel useless and dumb and fat and ugly and I!! :D HAHA !!! fun times !!! i just want to die. I honestly dont know if ill make it past 2020 tbh but that's fine. bUT !! I have nothing to be depressed ab because others have it worse and I'm shitting ab a perfectly fine life why can't I just FUCKING BE HAPPY??? idk I'm gross. A loser haha fuck this my brain is disgusting and I am sad :3 i just want to be happy but like,, who doesn't?? I hate this teehee. I keep having reoccurring nightmares ab the trauma and I wake up shaking and Im scared to go to sleep whee !! :3 love this. also my ex is making my life miserable but im still in love with him for some reason and it hurts so fucking much I just want him back I need him back but like its my fault we broke up anyways so hehe im so dumb and immature and stupid and gross and everyone hates me but probably not i just have insecurities. ANYWAYS!!! Ill be ok prolly - I'm so proud of everyone and their accomplishments tho!! mwah !! you're all doing so well i just feel dumb rn jgndbhdfnghd
- Published March 03, 2020, 18:47
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