aaasighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhaaaa

By iababa

i really want to start commissions
i cant though
and, not in a i doubt myself way, i actually think i would do really well and i think people would be happy with what i give but;
i dont have a way to get paid
i dont really know where to start? in terms of setting commissions up
ive been thinking of switching art programs over years of using the same thing - autodesk sketchbook to clip studio,, because i personally loved it when i was using the trial (but i dont have money to do so)
i want to practice on emotions and poses and... just everything in general
my laptop really sucks too and sometimes i cant even scroll in and out on sketchbook
unrelated but i also wanna try out redbubble just for fun but again, no way to receive money

but like i really wanna do commissions anyway, regardless of this stuff (except for the whole getting paid part) but like gahhhhhhhhh
i've been procrastinating over this whole thing for a long long time, its kind of sad. i dont think i would ever be ready for a job during school so i wanna do something to at least earn a little.