Loving somebody starts off as a simple choice. You could be complete enemies with somebody then decide you love them and tell yourself how much you love them until your utterly in love with them and boom. You've ensnared yourself in a trap. Having the choice at first can be a good thing If you choose to love somebody who you know can be healthy for you and you can maintain a healthy relationship with its good. I've done this to myself. This is also dangerous because it can lead to a unhealthy relationship, a Co depentand relationship. Due too certain events and people and such I am a Co dependant person But even so you can curbe your geneoligy just a little bit using how much you love somebody or the the person you depend on to make yourself depend on them less. So your not sucking away all their energy like a vampire. Being a pathetic sad blob who can only depend on the person you love for happy Ness is not that attractive. Especially if that person you decided on isn't too sure about you. Even if you are built a certain way and you can only get attached to certain people remember those people still have the option of a million fish in the sea while you may only have the option of two or three. After you've curbed that and become successful now you can work on teaching the other person to be loyal to you and learn to love you. This should help out when your apart because even though you can't contact each other because of that redundant thought those feelings don't fade away. They just grow stronger as you wait for each other. :) work on making yourself as good as you can be without there help before deciding to start something. Just remember not to be too shy or you'll loose ur chance. This is some info I wish I had a year ago or so. So yeah.