i love them all so much and i just want them to feel the same way but they dont and it fucking hurts why does it hurt so bad please make it stop i dont wanna do this anymore i just want someone to care as much as they pretend they do but they never will because everyone else is more important than me they'd all be so much better off if i was never here i wish i was never fucking born all of this never would've happened and everyone would be so much happier i dont even know what im doing here anymore theres no fucking point to it im just gonna die and no one will remember me whether i die now or later i might as well get a fucking headstart