sleep? never heard of her
it really fucks me up to think about my insomnia, because ive been able to stay awake longer and longer the older ive gotten. i used to only be able to stay up for 2 days, but over the summer, i hit 7 days without sleep. the world record is 11 days, which isnt too far away from 7. it terrifies me to think that i could be middle aged and die of sleep deprivation because i hit 11 days or more. hope to fucking god that i get sleep meds that work by then because currently, i can overdose on melatonin (which i have a few times trying to sleep) and it wont do shit. the only things thats managed to work is a really strong dose of muscle relaxants, and muscle relaxants dont really put you to sleep, they keep you in bed. they dont let you move. and then theres other stuff,, like what if i were to wake up during surgery. theres also a thing where you can wake up but you have no free will over your body, and you have to sit through the pain as youre operated on. what the fuck what if one of the recoils from my insomnia forces me to sleep for days straight. i could starve or die of thirst-- or just become extremely ill over it. what if i get a coma??? cus,, comas are caused by injuries to your brain, and the only reason sleep deprivation is so bad is because it wears your brain out a fuck ton til you cant function properly. god im fucking scared i fucking hate insomnia
- Published November 18, 2018, 10:09
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