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i am literally dreading this weekend and i feel so horrible about it i dont even wanna go anymore i should be excited but im not im so scared im just horrified of being around other people at this point cause i feel like every time i go out with friends or whatever im like "oh this'll be fun i can distract myself for a while, its gonna be a good time" and then i end up feeling even worse than before whenever i go out with ppl i just sit there and everyone has fun and i just feel so alone and disconnected from everyone and like they dont want me there and i have to hold back a breakdown the whole time and i know its gonna happen again and i dont want it to cause it just pushes me even further away from people and i already dont talk to anyone anymore and just im so tired why does anyone even keep me around anymore
- Published August 16, 2021, 17:47
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