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I hate you I hate you more than anybody I've ever met in my entire fucking life. You're one of the reasons I don't see my dad anymore. You're one of the reasons I'll never be the same. You're the reason I changed for better, but mostly for worse. I smell your perfume everywhere I go. Every god damn time I smell it, every last moment I spent happy with you runs through my head in milliseconds. Every moment, every emotion, and every last fucking time I stressed myself out to the point of breaking just for you. Those thoughts and emotions don't leave for a while. You ruined my friend group. You ruined a relationship. You ALMOST took the ONE PERSON who matters most to me. I'd fall apart if I lost him. I almost beat the shit out of my own friend because you accused him of raping you.... You made all my friends hate me and went off on me in front of them for literally no reason...... Oh how the tables turned. I was gullible and too believing, because you were my first. I finally got the nerve to tell you off, and 2 or 3 months later you decide to come over and apologize to me...? I can't ever get you out of my head huh It's to the point where I love and I hate you, and I cannot change you so I must replace you, oh. Easier said than done. I thought you were the one listening to my heart instead of my head. You found another one, but I am the better one. I won't let you forget me. Who knew evil girls had the prettiest face? I love juice wrld Prepare for the worst. Pray for the best.
