i need to cry but i just like,,,im sick of crying. it happens every day. i hate how im just at the point where im so tired and apathetic i can even bring myself to cry anymore. its not like theres a point anyways. crying never helps. i just keep getting worse and there's nothing anyone can do about it. people try to help but nothing works. i feel like everyone just completely gave up at this point. no one cares anymore. at least not as much as they used to. i mention that im sad or something and everyone just goes "oh mood" or "no that's bad". like yeah, obviously its bad but nobody tries to help anymore so shit just gets worse. i just kinda sit here and watch myself fall apart while i wait for someone or something to give some sort of sign that i shouldnt just completely give up. but at this point, i know that sign isnt coming. ive been waiting for like, 2 years. im still here, waiting for it, but its never gonna show up. maybe i should really just give up. everyone else has, why shouldnt i