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i keep just like
remembering the one day i almost tried to kill myself
and just
its not fun
i really wish i had done it right now
i keep seeing things all over with like razor blades and shit
like people on tik tok making something and using them to cut something
and it just makes me wanna fuck myself up so bad
its really hard not to considering i dont have to worry about going to school the rest of the year and no one's gonna see them
and its really not that hard to hide them when my mom is home
i just dont wanna be alive anymore
i want it to end
im so fucking tired of everything
giving up really just seems like my only option at this point
im never gonna be able to talk about my feelings literally ever cause im a stupid fucking dumbass and cant open up about anything
shits just gonna keep bottling up and getting worse
feels like the only way out rn
and i know its not but
its really hard to believe it

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