so uh my friend kinda uh figured out that I was trying to kill myself but I couldn't because there's no hooks in this house for a rope so instead I made a bunch of scratches on my arm with a knife I found and she found that out too so then I asked her to just send me to a mental hospital and uh she told me to find her a website so I gave her the website to the one that someone else I know's (if you see this I'm sorry) going to as well and she said she might actually call it so uh guess my fate's in her hands and I'm kinda scared but if I go offline for a long while that's the reason why. No need for alarm