why am i never good enough. i wish this would all fucking go away. i dont wanna feel like this anymore. i hate how much i overthink everything. i know its nothing and im looking too far into it. but it still hurts. everything fucking hurts. im so tired of being alive. i dont wanna do it anymore. i feel worthless and alone every damn second of my life and im so sick of it. i wanna feel something other than this shit for once. being sad fucking SUCKS. im over it. why do i have to feel like this. what did i do to deserve it. i wanna be able to talk about this to someone and just let shit out but im just fucking annoying and why would anyone even give a shit about anything i have to say. it doesnt fucking matter. why would i think anyone would care about me. i wish i could let myself ask for help. i dont wanna fucking do this shit anymore but every time i go to say something about how i feel i always just end up telling myself that no one is gonna care and im just a stupid fucking annoyance that no one likes and its fucking awful. i wanna get help. i dont wanna feel like this anymore. but i just cant let myself. im so sick of the constant crying and feeling like im never gonna get anywhere. i feel like a fucking burden