im mentally tired. i have no motivation and no will to keep going. i would never kill myself but i always wish someone would kill me. i dont like half of my friends and i cant keep in contact with a lot of them anyways, so not many people to talk to. have to deal with my annoying little shitstain of a sister and a narcissistic mother and 'step father'. i have nowhere to go and nothing to do and im fucking done with everything.