i really shouldn't. i shouldn't be upset or scared that you might threaten suicide again. you've done it so many times now that its almost predictable. if you DO do it because of me, sure it might be my fault or some bullshit, but it was your choice, not mine. you made the choice to. not me. why do i even bother anyways. and yeah youre probably going to use this post as ''OOOOOOOH LOOK GUYS XD THORN DOESNT CARE ABOUT DODODODODODODO!!!!!!!!!!!!'' i do care about you, but youre like a child that constantly needs attention and shit. and everytime you pull this suicide shit and do obsessive shit like this, i lose more and more of my lovey dovey feelings for you. theyre fading. because im getting tired of this. tired of it all. i cant sleep, i cant eat well either, i cant fucking focus on my work because im fucking sitting here STILL WORRYING TO DEATH THAT YOU ACTUALLY WILL DO IT???? fuck this. fuck it all man. im fucking tired of it. move on. im trying to move on but you wont let me. please. stop.