fine. fuck. why can't i just be good at school. why can't i just do what i'm supposed to. why can't I just get shit done. why am I like this. why can't I be better. these stupid fucking thoughts run through my head on loop all the god damn time. I want them to stop for once but somebody or something always triggers it and I can't stop these damn thoughts and I feel like shit all the time because of it. I just wish for once someone would say you are doing great, you are trying your best and it's ok. I swear I never hear those words though.