Is it this bad? I had to do it again why my arm? Someone will notice this time maybe. Maybe the redness on my arm will say it? Im so afraid and it turns into this. how? I dont feel like a great person at all and when someone does it feels like a lie i know its a lie it has to be right? and my punishment is all these years of depression and abuse right? or is it just that life wants my life away im too much. probably.