i have an account, im simply posting this anonymously as i dont want people to see, they would get too concerned over me. i dont understand how he doesnt seem to know im worth less than him, im not an equal person, im less and i deserve to be hurt because of how horrible i am. im going to go to hell and i know i am if it exists. i wish him and my mama died and went to heaven so i would be forced to suffer down here without them, and forced to suffer more in hell after i die. even if i get to heaven it would probably only be for them, i would need to be put on a leash and dragged around like the horrid thing i am, i dont deserve to know im around them, i doubt i would remember who they are, i would be like a stupid dog but worse, not cute, not nice, just there like a stuffed animal for the sentimental attachment of others to me.