jesus
its so much harder to stay happy when theres so much stopping you from doing it. i wanna leave. be free, get out of here, but im too fucking scared. everything would be so much better off if i wasnt here. no one would have to hurt because of me anymore, they wouldnt have to deal with me. everyone just feels obligated to keep me around cause its been that way for who knows how long. i should just go. it would all be so much easier for both me and everyone else if i was gone. i dont fucking matter. im just an insignificant little speck in this place. everyone is so much better than me. theyre good people, talented, smart, good looking, and im not any of those things. im just a boring, broken shell of a person. i wanna be normal again, like i used to be. all of this used to be fine, i used to be happy, confident, a good person, but everything changed so quickly. ever since then ive been noticing things that hadnt seen when i was okay. like how everyone leaves me, how awful of a place this planet is, how much everyone lies just for the sake of making me feel better instead of actually caring, yknow shit like that. all of this keeps getting worse and worse, ive never really gotten this close to ending all of this. i just make everything worse for myself and now im stuck in this never-ending spiral of anxiety and loneliness. i want it to stop
- Published April 18, 2019, 16:37
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