ignore desc it's a stupid vent but i want to leave it up putting it in the fishbowl bc i like how the drawing turned out for the most part going rabid i’ll tell him i’m into him at some point, i just need to find the time. maybe before we graduate, maybe sooner, for some reason i can’t stop thinking about this- what changed these past few years? maybe because i haven’t dated all throughout high school just because i’ve been into him and haven’t ever said anything, i feel like i’ve lost time and might have lost any chance with him already who knows, maybe it’ll ruin our friendship, maybe it’ll go well sorry about all this, it feels like i only came back to vent about this, i think i just needed a place to get this off of my chest. maybe it’s helping to build my courage. maybe not