im tired
just in general. im tired of finding out there's something wrong with me. i started a medication for my inability to focus on tasks a few weeks ago and i went in for a checkup on that today. didnt even make a dent. absolutely no effect. i felt like my mom was slandering me the whole time the way she was telling my doctor about my shortcomings. its whatever i guess im tired of waking up with the hope of actually turning my grades around. it never happens. i never do anything about it. if i could change anything about myself, id end up tearing myself to bits trying to come up with just one thing to change. crying is out of the question. its not going to fix anything, but what will? i dont know what to do but sleep. even when im not tired. i'd just rather not be awake.
