of course as soon as i start to feel better about myself if all gets flushed down the drain. i wonder if she'll ever start to realize that she's cause the majority of this. like, you're why i dont eat, why i dont wanna go out and do stuff, and why i cant bring myself to do anything other than sit and do nothing all night. she gets so mad at me all the time and i fucking hate it. i already hate myself enough i dont think i need you added on top of that. i dont wanna do it anymore. im too weak to keep pushing through the bullshit she puts me through