damn

i cant draw and im dying cause my room feels like a sauna and its sad boi hours right now and i have lotsa ideas and motivation but my art skills left me and ugHHHHHHHhhh i wanna di e

the scissors on my nightstand are really tempting and im trying not to grab them cause i havent cut in over a week and im trying to keep it like that but im slowly starting to give in

its not good

i also feel really lonely right now,,,,,like yeah its almost midnight and everyones asleep but i just wanna talk or something??? i have no idea what about but. maybe itd distract me from all the shit going on in my head at the moment

i want a hug or like
i wanna snuggle lmao
the only things i can snuggle are my stuffed animals
its kinda sadddddd
im lonely

i dont even know whst im typing rn im really tiredd
cant sleep tho
like alwaysssssssssss

i cant sees anything on my sketchbook cause its dark and i cant turn the lights on but i wanna draw stuff

all of the ability i had to draw digitally just jumped out my second story window and cracked its neck on impact so now its deaddd

i wanna draw gory stuff
thatd be fun

maybe hanahaki
its relatable cause yknow one sided loveee
theres lotsa people i wish loved me the way i loved them
but i suck so
guess nottt

Dominic might be good for hanahaki,,,,,,,,
hes sad and alone like me
and he just wants someone to love himmm
Dom it is thenn

egh ignore this im really tired and am just spilling my thoughts out into this post idk
dotn read through all this bullshit the fuck
not worth your timmeeee

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