I'm not exactly sure that this is indeed an intrusive thought but I want to fucking cry this is so fucking scary. I was just chilling on a video call with my boyfriend and I just thought about killing him. Slowly. I'm gonna fucking vomit that was horrible. I wanted to kILL HIM. I don't trust myself near him I'm gonna fucking cry. He's so precious and I WANTED TO HURT HIM??? I'm,, disgusting.