vent

i cant sleep at night, no matter what, stress controls me, it doesnt let me rest, if i say an opinion, everyone attacks me
unlucky, unlucky, unlucky little human
big regrets
big regrets
why am i this messed up?
stop ignoring me. my effort, wasted
nightmares, anxiety i dont like my life
ah, what is wrong with me?
i just wish i didnt make that mistake.
you think you're okay?
ah, what is wrong with you?
not enough, not enough
you think im okay?
no, im not
you think you're okay?
how many times we argued for such things?
yet, we are still friends.
why are you so harsh to me
you say you dont care
still, the other day you act like everything is fine when you
mentally hurt me,
you realize that what you're doing is not okay?
WHATS WRONG with you!?
im not sad, mum, you dont help either way.
stuck on a loop,
i cant sleep
i cant sleep at night, no matter what, stress controls me, it doesnt let me rest, if i say an opinion, everyone attacks me
unlucky, unlucky, unlucky little human
big regrets
big regrets
why am i this messed up?
then,
i come back.
at morning, im fine.
look at me, i look at your eyes.
"i dont want to eat"
its all of that damn laptop, right?
no it isnt, infact it helps me.
and if you block it from me you wonder why im sad?

not big words, they are words with a meaning,
nevermind, you wont ever understand
actually those children are right.
wtf is now right and wrong?
so many vents for nothing.
no one understands them WHATS the point of making them?
not enough.
i have so many years to live and
i have done nothing other than making a big regret.
moved? moved?
for what?
for being honest?
im searching for excuses. i admit that.
no one seems to care, so why should i be kind?

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