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i don't even feel like showing people my art anymore
i don't feel like talking to people in general
it always seems like whenever i say something people barely acknowledge it and then move on
i feel like people don't care
i already force myself not to tell people about stuff and not get too excited about things because i just feel like a nuisance otherwise
talking about things i like always makes me feel like shit cause no one ever seems like they're as interested or excited as i am so obviously they're not enjoying the conversation as much as me and then i feel fucking annoying and stupid and like i'm making myself look weird
it sucks i just wanna let myself like things without feeling like i'm inconveniencing people just by existing
and i feel like i'm so uninteresting to talk to cause i can't keep a conversation going and everyone else i know is so much more fun and outgoing than me and they always have so much fun with other people
and then i just kinda sit there and feel like garbage cause no one talks to me and i get ignored or don't feel like i'm allowed to join in
i literally can't interact with people normally i never know what to do
this shit has been happening since like middle school and it just keeps getting worse to the point where i don't feel like i can talk to anyone anymore
i just keep distancing myself more and more cause i feel like no one actually likes me
i don't know
this is stupid ignore this i just needed to get it out somewhere
probably just being dramatic

• Published April 30, 2022, 23:26
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