The thoughts. the beatiful thoughts. I hate myself truly. I will never like myself. I regret alot of things. I dont like it here. If I stay one moment here... ill lose it and i already have. Hanging out with my friend made myself happy. my only friend I trust irl. Im lonely aren't I? Im scared. Im always scared. I want out. I want to be free. but Ill never be. I dont belong here. Im worthless.