i shouldt feel guilty. this isnt m fault. I cant be responsible for everyone. why am I starting to feel guilty. I dont understand?! Im so tired... I dont.. I dont even know im so...so..fuck it. why am I even tryig to write. councler- fucking- thank the councler- fuckign. i give up. its like I never even tried. Why diddny he go to the councler befrie then?! Im...im so worthles...