he really doesnt care, does he? i dont matter to him you have friends who are suffering too but i get it. he matters more than everyone else does. its fine. perfectly fucking fine. act like hes the only one that exists. its f i n e why do i even care? if he doesnt wanna be around me, then whatever. i dont matter to anyone so who cares if they wanna push me away. ill be okay without them, right? right...?