._.

i wish i talked to people more. i wish i could get myself out there. i just get too nervous about it. theres tons of people i wish i was friends with and that i talked to but i feel like theyre just gonna brush me off if i try to talk to em. i cant really bring myself to do it cause im just so used to getting ignored

i hate myself jfc

i just--
i really want a hug

but like always, no ones here to do that

so
thats fun

and even if i do get hugs, its only cause i mention that im sad. it never just--happens.

i should just start bottling all this shit up. honestly, everything just seems to get worse when i open up because some tiny ass little thing that someone says or does afterwards completely rips me to pieces. people always make it seem like other people matter more. theyre probably right now that i think about it. everyone would rather be off with someone else.

they really hate me that much, huh?

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