everything i do is a mistake! I cant even be around friends (The ones that are being careful) And yes i am careful but please for just one day? like a sleepover? no. only a hour or two... eeveryone else gets what they want see friends more than a hour.... do fun stuff. I hate it. It makes me feel so emtpy and lonely. Im on the point of killing it. Why cant I be happy? is it because ive been emotionly abused? I always feel scared. i want freedom from this house.... family...