~VENT~ I have no right to be angry.
Do I? Okay. I have an after school program and your supposed to pick up your kid by 5:00. My parents already had a schedule of my after school meetings so i assumed they knew i stayed after today. I waited. And waited. And waited till it was about 5:30. By this time i was sitting outside. In the cold. Alone. I talked and sang to myself saying 'they wouldn't forget' and 'your just being too paranoid'. I texted them. I called them. No response. Eventually it was 5:40. My teacher wanted to call them to tell them to pick me up. I didn't want her to so I called them myself. My mom answered. She said that it would be longer. And then I got a text from my STEP dad and he said and I quote "socialize". There were no other kids and i was alone. Eventually I sat on the curb and cried. My parents finally arrived. I got into the car. My STEP dad said "I'm sorry baby". It upset me that he had the nerve to say 'sorry' and call me 'baby'. This meant one thing. They forgot me. I could smell hints of alch0l in his breath and takeout next to him and i knew what they were. My STEP dad gad gone on a date and forgot about me. In the car he said he could 'read peoples auras' that sentence pissed me off. If he could read auras he would know how i felt. I smiled. Even though i was so hurt I smiled. We got home and i was the first one to get in the house and i ran to the bathroom. I decided he just made a mistake and that we would talk it over. All these good things happened to me. I got an A on my test and had a meeting with an association that could help me in the future with my education. I broke down. I cried and cried. Eventually even glancing at a blade on the counter. I tried to cut 'something' and eventually broke it from the force. My mom called my name and forced me out. I cleared all the things i messed up and left. My STEP dad called me now. He asked me if i wanted to eat. I said no. He then said he was going to shut down the kitchen and asked again. This time i said yes. He soon lectured me over something. I grabbed frozen dumplings and started to heat them up in a microwave. As they cooked, he looked a the dish drying rack and said "Wow. Look at these dishes. They look terrible. Just terrible." I agreed last night there were ants everywhere and i had to clean it up. By time I got to the dishes I was tired and rushed. He soon talked about how he would get beatings for stuff like that. He told me this was my last warning. I quietly grabbed my food and thought. 'Why did I want to smile when he yelled?' I knew why. It's because everything he said was true. He emphasized on my laziness though. I still smiled except It was genuine. Then I walked to my room and shut the door. I'm crazy aren't I? To think that I complained about balencing 4 outside of school programs and then including school. I still get picked on behind my back. All these stresses are burying me. I want to cry but no tears are coming. I wish i had my real dad. I wonder will I become a violent drunk like he was. I don't know what to do. Please if you read the whole thing, tell me what to do. I don't know how much longer I can keep myself smiling.
- Published March 05, 2019, 17:50
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