ill be completely honest
i always try to stick to my happy go lucky self but sometimes i just need to rant and heres rant time i feel alone way too much i mean sure i have my cat Cinder but she isn't human and i need to talk to people physically and all of my friends usually aren't available or just leave me when im in a call with them and i usually see them in a different call with other people when they told me they were going to their grandma's and it just makes me think im annoying and a bad friend and i want to ask if i am but i dont know if i should ask because they might lie and try to make me feel good but keep their true feelings a secret and i want them to be honest with me so that could know and try to improve my behavior and become a better friend but how would i know they are lying or not and it scares me. And yes i do see some friends physically and i also feel as if im being an arse and i really want to know if im a bad friend so i can know if i can keep my friends or not. sorry for the depressing mood i will try to make a more positive post later but for now im going to go to sleep
