i love how i had like a perfectly fine day and nothing bad happened whatsoever yet im still over here feeling like im worthless and dumb and shouldnt be alive and just im tired shit just keeps getting worse and i keep bottling it up and i wanna talk about it but im afraid to open up and i just dont know what to do anymore. im sick of feeling like shit and making other people feel like shit because of it. i dont want anyone to feel responsible for me or like my problems are their problems so i just shut up and act like shits getting better and put on a happy face for everyone but its getting really fucking hard to keep going like that every day when i feel this god damn miserable but i have no idea how to get better and just i dont know im just tired of it all i wish shit was different