Normal childhood
(Trigger warning) I wonder if I had a normal childhood Hmm Went for ice cream Got tons of toys Saw a man constantly taking pictures of girls without their consent Ate kinder eggs (my favourite!) Did sports Got abused in my house Watched kids shows Listened to music I loved in the living room Got discriminated by some teachers Got roller skaters of my favourite serie at the moment (wow!) Wrote books and got praised for it Developed DPDR because of trauma Went to different countries, such as Brazil, Paraguay, or Uruguay Planned my death at 9 I'm running out of good memories! I wonder if I had a normal life at all? Constantly got in fights in school Got in an abusive relationship I thankfully escaped Gender dysphoria Smoked, tried drugs Self harmed Low self steem Attempted many times (two of them while listening to Keane, now it makes me uncomfy when I listen to "Can't Stop Now" and "This is the last time") (Specially the lines "This is the last time that I will show my face, one last tender lie and then I'm out of this place", "The motion keeps my heart running") Met an online friend secretly (So much trouble for what?) Got depressed But not everything can be bad, right? SOME things are getting better lately Finding more artists I like Having flashbacks of my trauma Finding more friends Feeling ashamed of my scars, not being able to wear shorts Slowly recovering My mother still abusing me Getting his forgiveness and finally being able to move on My dog's death (I still miss you, Star) Enjoying drawing again Her showing me she never truly changed, she's still an awful person Learning piano! Going to therapy Being with the most wonderful person I have ever met Having the motivation to write novels like I used to Meeting an old friend I missed a lot Being able to talk to people without shaking or feeling anxious I'm running out of bad memories And that's good Maybe things are getting better
- Published October 16, 2024, 22:11
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