im not okay. i dont know what im feeling anymore. life feels like nothing, its all going to be the same each day. I want to make a change. even if you give me those pills day and day ill just find its the same again. its like im trapped. im not good at anything. Im just useless. just a person anyone can forget. I guess ill try again and again till it works. a little blood wont hurt would it? Why do i feel this way. it doesnt matter anyway does it. ill go back on wasting my time on nothing.