i got accepted into two universities ive been wanting to go to (four others still deciding). while i am happy i have a university to go to. i cant help but think of my future. not only is my body already deteriorating, but i cant continue to do this as a career. ive already got a head start on just ruining my body. i cant stand up for too long with out my back just hurting in general. it kinda sucks. just knowing im going to be barely scraping by in my career in the future. everything i need to do costs money and theres no possible way i can make it to that point. i will be barely surviving alone. it makes me wonder if anything is worth doing since you dont mean or cant do anything unless theres a big money number to your name. anyways, i clipped my steer tonight, took about three hours and i still need to do some final touch ups on him. but this will be the last time clipping him until he shows and stuff so. hopefully we do good idk. im so tired. i am. now going to sleep at 9pm.