Yes this is a vent. I try to be happy and be like the others. I try not to let in the pain. I try to be like others so that I can fit in. I want to fit in. I'm tired of being the person who is left out. I want to have friends on here. True friends. I want people who I can talk to when things are tough. I'm tired of crying at night and wishing to fit in. Drawn means alot to me. I can restart and change myself. I can become this funny person on discord or this happy bouncy person on drawn. I can fake things easily. Thats why they don't know. Because I pretend to be happy, pretend to be enjoying myself and pretend that everything is okay. I'm sick of it. These things haunt me and I end up nearly falling asleep in class. hh It actually feels good to have this all out.