I feel horrible, Im bored of everything and thoughts just flow. im truly starting to give up. Im already home sick. I have so much anxiety. I cant deal with it. I dont understand why I hate most people when i want to be with someone all the time. Its unhealthy trully. I wish I could just change myself. im not happy with myself i hate everything about myself. just the way i act, look everything. I want to tear myself apart.