you ever just look through pms you have with someone you would literally give everything to be with again and its all just you both saying you love and miss each other until you just like wanna cry and then you cry more cause like you're dating someone else now and love them a fuck ton but still miss the other person and then you feel guilty as all hell and then also have another person you kinda like that doesn't like you back and is also dating someone else and then you're just really sad and confused and don't know what the fuck to do with your emotions anymore cause you can't control them and now you're just a pathetic ball of anxiety that wishes they had never come into existence and you also feel like no one loves or cares about you no matter how much people try to tell you they do and no matter how much you try to tell yourself that and then you also just kinda sit in the corner wishing you could bring yourself to message people you wanna talk to you cause you feel alone as fuck without tearing yourself apart by saying that they don't wanna talk to you and you're just a huge annoyance to them and they don't want you around anymore and then you just wanna stab yourself a little bit? just me? okay