Fucked up too many times now [desc]
Hard week for me. I had 2 guys try to interfere with me and my gf. Trying to break us up because they were made or they wanted her. It started longer than a week ago but this week was the worst week of my life. Theres this kid named Shiloh who WAS my friend. I didn't know him for very long. he was moving here, so I was trying to help her make friends since she had a bad time at her other school. Us 3 became really good friends. Shiloh started to flirt with her behind my back. She kept telling me. I just decided to leave it be because she was playing with his feelings to get the truth. It got worse. Shiloh ended up telling me that she liked him. I freaked out and started crying. He hugged me and shit and just said he was sorry. I actually believed him. It was a lie. All of it. Another kid named Obed tried the same thing too. Move to this week. Shiloh follows her around all the time, even after we both told him to fuck off. I kept asking her why she still wanted to be around him. She said it was because he goes through the same shit as her. I SAID WHO CARES?! WHY WOULD U WANNA BE AROUND HIM AFTER EVERYTHIG?! She told me fine he wasn't her friend anymore. The thing is though, that Saturday, we were supposed to go to a movie with him. So she rlly couldn't do anything until then. It built up inside of me. I cried in class once. I can't stand having him around. Always touching on her and acting like ME AND HIM ARE FRIENDS, WHEN HE KNOWS I HATE HIM! DO YK WHAT WAS GOING THROUGH MY HEAD?! WHY TF WOULD HER MOM BE MAKING HER GO TO A MOVIE WITH HIM?! I was hurting. Friday, when I left her after school (Shiloh was with us the whole time), she yelled at him, telling him she was done with his shit. Thing is, I told my mom we were going Shiloh this weekend. My mom knew what Shiloh did. So, when she called her mom to see what was going to happen this weekend, her mom got mad. My gf thought it was me. She thought I cried to my mom abt it and said a lot more than I did. I didn't and I told her that. After that, I talked to my mom abt it because she made me. She told me she was lying to get out of a bad situation. Then, I thought. I could log into her snap. I could see what she was texting Shiloh. The last messages I saw were... I love you with all my heart. I love you with all my heart too. I froze. I woke her up by snap calling her and told her abt this. I was so mad, but she refused. She never fessed up to it. You know why? Because that message was meant for me. I was on the phone with her when she went to sleep and I was talking while she was texting. When I told her I love her and goodnight, she never responded. That was because she sent it to him on accident. The reason it was sent to him was because she had just texted him about something with us. The message I love you message was sent at 9:50. That was right when she went to bed. We made up, but the thing is, my mom had seen those messages because I told her. She told me I wasn't allowed to date her anymore. Then she took my phone because it was late. I cried and screamed. It was my fault. I still cry a lot. We broke up 2 days ago, and since then life's kinda boring. Sad too. All I think about is her and what I could've done better. Ik now why they call it a fucking heart break. I can't go back either. Me and her are still friends, which kinda just makes it even harder for me. Worse part, she hung out with Shiloh and some other girls last night. I wish Shiloh was dead. The pain in my heart is unbearable. Hearing her talk about how much fun she had just makes me feel like she doesn't even miss the relationship we had. We broke up 2 days ago. Idk when I'm gonna get over it. All her friends hate me for it too. I want it to stop. Everything reminds me of her. I can always smell her. Clothes, shows, toys, every time my phone buzzes. Why. Why did it have to be me? Why me?! Edit- Her and Shiloh got together the day after we broke up Damn ;-;
