ii cna t fuck gingv live with myself anymore ive been in and out of reality all dy i cant cry any more tears i have to end it tonight i cant wake up tomorrow i hve to kill myself right now i cant do it anymore all i am is an extra mouth to feed im never going to make i t anywys i have to find some way to kill myself rightn now i have to i cant do this anymo,re i cant stand it it hurts so much ii dont deserve anythig i have i cant tell whats real from fake anymore i want to die so fucking bad i need to get away there is so much guilt on top of me i need it all to go away i cant do anything anymore i cant go on everything is my fault i want to be normal i want to be happy i want to go one day without having suicidal thoughts everything hurts so badly i cant talk to anybody other than this brick wall of a site i canr get help whenever i try to te;ll somebody somethings wrong i just get told to shut up i just get told im making it all up for sympathy i need them all to know how i feel i cant stand it anymore i feel like im not even awake right now it all just feels like a nightmare i cant do it i can,t live any longer i ve fucked myself up enough everybdoy would be better off without me i